My grumpy time.

I'm not gonna lie to you. I am ornerier than ornery (that is the funniest looking word) today. I feel bad for the readers because somehow I really feel better if I get it out on my blog.

My throat feels like raw hamburger.
I had lots and lots of seizures and my body aches real bad.
My head feels like someone took a hammer to it.
I can't sleep or wake up in the morning.
I'm tired.
I have so much to do like clinicals on saturday, the pageant, and a whole lotta tests.

So, dear body of mine, I would REALLY appreciate it if you could just cooperate with me, instead of making this difficult. I can't wait for you in the resurrection anymore, I need you to function RIGHT now.

I think/hope/pray tomorrow will be better than today. We are trying some different treatments for the seizes and I think it is helping...whew!

All I can say to all of you is "carpe diem", or seize the freakin day.

Can't believe it.

I seriously CAN'T believe it...
I guess it does happen all the time....I'm just really naive.
80 or so students were getting the anatomy tests out of the testing center and EMAILING them to people!
If you opened the email and didn't say anything you are expelled from Dixie State College.
I am SO glad I dropped the class so I wasn't even the tiniest bit in the middle of it.
Seriously? Cheat on pre med stuff?? No wonder it took me five years to get diagnosed!
Maybe a few of those snitchy doctors cheated on THEIR tests.
Kind of scary to think about huh?

I am a reptile.

I had a Jessner's chemical peel done.
It was to get rid of scarring.
It. Hurt. Like. JUDD.
Felt like one of those green cleaning scrubby pads against your face with acid.
After that pain then came the heat and like piss-ants were biting my face.
All the fans in the world couldn't calm down that kind of heat.
Day 1-2 Your face looks like someone took a blow torch to it and feels like it too.
Day 3 Your skin gets really really tight and wrinkly and you look like an old woman.
Day 4-7 it starts to peel...in chunks. Oh ya, you can't peel or tear it...only cut it off.
I am on day 6 and I look nappy, and I am sick of skin cells all over me from flaking...NASTIFICATION!
Almost done.
Breathe.
It was free...usually one hundred bucks and 10 dollars per layer.

Hope I look stunning after~

Ouchie Wah Wah!

Not gonna lie, my leggies are REAL tired from starting tahitian dancing again. It's really coming together and I got a kick bum costume...wish I was a little browner to go with that

Look at this little girl doing Tahitian! Love it.

My Dog Sonny (AKA Scuddles)

My Scuddles (don't even ask where the nickname came from because I have no idea) is the best doggie in the whole world. He make me laugh and my heart all squishy and coming home this weekend he has been the best. Here is a little video of him from last night

Here are the things I love about Scuddles:
1. He is snuggling with me right now.
2. He acts like a human, and not a dog.
3. He gets worried and sits faithfully by me when I have a seize.
4. HE has a BOYFRIEND named Paco who thinks he is awesome and owns the world. Sonny should really get out of that relationship.

5. He does the funniest tricks.
6. He has a poodle patch (a dark spot of really curly poodle hair...he's a Peek-poo breed.
7. His rubber lip.

8. He is pretty much a human child in our house and my mom treats him like that.
9. His funny ears that make him itch SO bad so he always has to itch them for 5 hours and his little doggie chain makes the most annoying noise when you are trying to sleep.
10. That he likes his armpits scratched.
11. That no matter how hard Jules tried not to like him because it was not Buddy, but she loves him so much now...and so does EVERYONE else who tries so hard NOT to like him...they can't help it.
12. He is so gentle and soft.
13. He hardly ever stinks because he has fur instead of hair....oh and he doesn't shed either.

15. That among his favorite treats are almonds, blueberries, carrots, ice cubes, tomatoes, and a lot of other healthy stuff.
16. He LOVES to ride in the car.
17. And he has poodle straight legs.

I could go on forever but I will spare you. I just want to squeeze him everyday! I wish he lived with me. I hate not having him snuggles with me.

Photoshoot by Tyler Graff aka Stuk.

For D queen I had to have a head shot, so Tyler Graf, AKA Stuk took some for me. Here are some, including some CREEPSTER ones from Shwau and Dillon. Very funny are these:

What we do at 2 am

It has been so long since I had a decent blog, I'm not gonna lie. Things have been a little crazy as usual, but some big changes have happened with me. Here they go:
1. So after all I am not applying for nursing right now. I had some issues with my entrance exam and it shut off on me 15 questions left. Can you believe it?! I was getting so stressed out that I stepped back and looked at all and realized I really need to be healthy before I start such a rigorous program, and also I need to actually have fun, and I wasn't. I just was stressing myself out to death and not getting any better in the process. I'm 20 years old. Freak, I can wait a semester to apply.

2. I decided to run for Service Chair on student government. I'm stoked and hope lots and lots I will get on!

3. I guess I got swindled into doing Dixie Queen pageant. Thank GOODness it is not a prance around in a swimming suit kind. It's based on service, involvement, interview, talent, and evening wear. I'm gonna hula and I think it will be way fun. It is a thousand dollar scholarship so I figure, what the heck, I'll go for it.

4. I'm movin home this summer to take some classes at UVU. I am so excited to be with the fam for a while!

5. I had way bad seizures this weekend even taking my medicine right. I went to the doc and he said there were some things off in my hormones. However today they actually gave me a NAME to put with my seizures and I have FINALLY been diagnosed: they are called CATAMENIAL seizures. I am so so blessed to have such a good doctor who has finally figured it out. WAHOO! I am definitely on the up side.

Good old St. George....this is what we like to do at 2 AM. It could be - actually is - pretty embarrassing...but so funny! This is us doing Tell Him by Barbara Streisand and Celine Dion. You have to get through the first part that is stupid and messed up and turn off my stupid music on the side. Stefanie will probably kill me for putting it on here....but for some reason I can't get over how funny it is. We literally recruited about 3 more people to join in our fun times and did about 500 hundred more songs...more to come. Enjoy my embarrassment.