Ohhh man.

My sister showed this to me and it was just too much to handle.

Poor girl.

Normal

I am officially a normal person again because
my cell phone is back on.
That just cements for sure that
I am home from my mission and that is weird!
Anyway, if you knew me before the
mission it is the same number - so now you know where to find me.
Happy Thursday :)

A Steady Diet.

Ok, so I definitely do not look like Brittany Murphey...but I should be called Ramen Girl.

Right now I am living off of a steady diet of:
1. Ramen
2. Ginger Ale
3. Jamba Juice
4. Crackers

That's about all I can stomach these days....and that is if I am lucky. The meds I am on make me really sick to my stomach and give me no appetite; however, they make me more sick if I don't eat...hence, I am force feeding myself even those things.

So yesterday, my sweet sister and I went to the store and walked down every single aisle in hopes that just might possibly find one thing that looked remotely appetizing....nothing. Everything made my stomach turn AND I smelled fish when we walked past the meat packaging. That was the worst. I feel like a pregnant woman!

All that came out looking like I could shove down my throat...


                                                                               Ramen.


The good news: I am getting pretty skinny. And I am going to be on these meds for a looooong time. The nausea will go away: loss of appetite and skinniness, probably not. I can handle that :).

O.

The Queen.

Oprah.

Gosh, I just love her.

Ya, ya, I get teased about it all the time.

Sure I wrote a research paper on her.

Ya, so I quote her I all the time.

And, ya my friends tease me about her relentlessly.

And I would give my left arm for her to show up on my doorstep and tell me that should she would fund my non profit idea.

And ok, so I told a bunch of guys in my living room the other day I thought she was pretty high up on my list and they all put their head in their hands and gave me the "look" and almost they told me they hated me right then and there.

BUT I just think she is REALLY pretty great. Who is just born on a dirt road, abused their whole life and then just gets to own the world and give stuff away all the time? No one does. She is a pretty freakin rad humanitarian. Even if I don't believe in all the things she does 100% of the time, I respect her. And if I got to tell everyone my opinion 100% of the time...got to make everyone listen all the time to what believe in - well, they would get an ear full. And well, a whole lot of deserving people would be getting a lot of things they really need, just like she gets to do and give it to them. Man I envy her.

The point of all of this, was that on like my 100th episode of Oprah the other day as my crippled mother ( her foot surgery went great by the way) and I watched captivated, she announced that she had a half sister (crazy right?). Well,  my mom made a HILARIOUS joke and yelled out at the end in her very best Oprah voice, "everyone in the audience.... is getting a new sister!!! YOU'RE ALL GOING HOME WITH YOUR VERY OWN SISTER!!"

I literally wet my pants it was so funny.

Good one mom. Sooooo good. O (get it?) so good.

It reminded me of this THIS clip (hilarious).

Today is a new day.

So I finally slept. Yay! I FINALLY SLEPT! I am so happy I could weep.

I didn't mean to get so snappy and grumpy yesterday....but  I REALLY didn't feel good.

Also, my dad may have had a super stressful day and my mom had only just been in for foot surgery 24 hours prior so I was trying to take care of her, while taking care of myself. She was also trying to take care of me while taking also care of herself....both of those don't work. Also making me more grump. That last post...grumpy, and emotional.

Anyway, I finally slept and although I still really don't feel good and have a migraine and all of that good stuff... sleep is my friend, and sleep makes me a happy person...and so now I can cope.

So watch me cope today as I watch another ten episodes of Grey's Anatomy. Seriously I wish someone would have told me it was so good.

And update on the overall health and the going on the mission and all  is that  the doctor said she would not send me back out for 2 to 3 months if at all...this recovery is going to take time. So that is really hard for me to accept. However, it is great because I am not going through anything serious or life threatening...this is fixable, it just makes feel really not good...and like bashing my head through a window. But this is such a blessing because really I have not been well for 6 years or so, and I think I have gotten half way better so many times. But we are at the basement level here, and I have nothing standing in my way to hurry and get better for...I can get all the way better and move forward with my life and I feel so at peace with what Heavenly Father has in store for me. So it is going to be ok, even if I don't love the process.

I just have to be patient and a few of the pills they have me on are not going to make me happy for the next little while...hence, the last few days and not sleeping and feeling so nauseated and like I want to take an axe to my body. Next week is going to be even  more rough, maybe it won't and someone up there will cut me some slack, but I am just going to prepare for the worst.

Thanks so much for all the prayers and help in my behalf. I will keep moving forward and working towards whatever future the Lord has in store. As for now I still am pretty much bound to the laying down and to the TV and once in a great while getting out....movie anyone??

So pathetic. hahah

The Scoop.

Uhhhh....

The cold hard facts of my last couple days are KILLING me.

The fact that I have not slept in over 34 hours - ya, that one hurts. Thirty FOUR hours.

And thirty four hours of off and on migraine and nausea and a lot of other random things I won't even bother mentioning.... also, killing me softly.

It is enough to make me insane. Clinically.

And I have to eat, I don't want to eat - I really don't, because I want to throw up instead...however, I need to shove down a very large number of supplements and pills.

Oh and it makes me sick not eat. But it makes me sick TO eat ....hmmmm??? What to do??? It is quite the conundrum isn't it??

I want to cry. Yep....crying. Done.

You should probably just glue my eyelids open...because no sleeping done here.

Ya, that would probably work.

Hey, might even help the migraine....because then the air can get to my brain and dry it all up!!!!

The good news is sarcasm, my blog, and knowing I am going to get better makes me feel BETTER!

And, I have netflix.

So life is good. Way good.

K now I am laughing....all better :)

The tube.

So I have been home for a while right?

And with nothing to do....absolutely nothing.
I mean I have too many migraines a week to read except to just enough to stand personal study (and sometimes that means someone reading to me or listening to a talk on the internet) and when I get enough energy I get out and take a ride in the care.

In the mean time....I watch TV....A LOT of TV.
And when I say a lot, I mean a lot.
I mean, honestly I don't know what else to do, you know? I'm pretty incapacitated right now...
So in the mean time we got Netflix and Apple tv and Hulu and Directv.

It is bad people. It's sick...and so am I. Oh...and I have nothing else to do.

Plus Oprah has her new OWN network. I mean hello people! Next to the Prophet she is the best.

Trust me when I say I would do something more productive (like a mission...or just even like anything) if I could function like a normal human being.

So here is to my new favorites:
Off the Map
The Bachelor
Modern Family
Oprah Presents: Master Class
The Oprah Winfrey Show (Her last season! I can't even stand it! I. Love. Her. So. Much. And if you didn't hear she has a long lost sister. Ya, look it up. She announced it on her show yesterday. I am totally caught up.)
The Ultimate Cake Off
Grey's Anatomy (Had no idea this show was so addicting. Started it on netflix two days ago. Hooked. )
Lost
Saturday Night Live
The Office
And eight bazillion other movies I can't even list or I might look like an even crazier person.

You can come watch with me....???

Don't judge.