The sun is shining, and I've never seen a better performance.

First off the weather here in St. George is BEAUTIFUL! It is beyond perfect temp. and it is so nice to start getting some quality rays. It is 68 degrees and perfect.

Second off last night on my date with Toddy we went first to the "Rebelette's" performance. It was in the basketball arena and was really, really good.! I hate to downplay their performance but about a third of the way in was easily my favorite part and probably something I will never forget. As the announcer announced the "Prime Time Dancers", ten 50-70 year old ladies in sea foam green, fish-scale sparkly outfits and black stretchy pants-with the typical grandma hair cut, oversized earrings, the orangey-colored St. George tan that only rich old ladies have, large diamond rings, and more makeup caked on that I can even fathom began their drill team-like routine to a medley of Mamma Mia. They were delightful, and a breath of fresh air to see them have so much fun.

The best part? A lady totally busted out the splits at the end. Insanity.

Loooong week!

This week has felt like a never ending JUDDING long week. I had eight tests. EIGHT. Surprisingly I did way better than I thought on most of them except one. SO thats good news! Plus, I had so much for ambassadors and a few actual projects. I still am just amazed I made it through the week alive. I knew I was dumb for taking so many credits but now I am realizing how much of a nut case I really am.

Some new health updates:

Some days I just feel like crying because I am right at that in between stage. I am not sick enough to just quit everything (thank goodness!), but not well enough to do everything I want to do. Sometimes that can be frustrating in a weird way because I have SO many things that I want to do SO much, but physically I get held back. I am just at that brink of being all the way well however.

Yesterday my doctor didn't get my medicine called in for a day and a half so I had a seizure. My mom who has been such a rock and help through all of this the last 5 years was pretty frustrated again that my body is so sensitive to the hormone shifts. So she got online and did some more research (which she has done tirelessly. Thanks mom!) and found an epilepsy center in California that is researching my type of seizures that they don't know much about. Such good news! I feel like we are getting more and more answers and maybe sooner rather than later they can do something to help my body not be so sensitive to those changes and get me on some different medication that doesn't have so many side effects.


Next on the list, my kidneys feel like a big hurt! I started getting that same pain back and so I went and dropped a sample and they called me back and said I had a large amount of blood in my urine. Monday I get to do an awesome IPV CT scan. My favorite pat: the prep. I get to eat only chicken broth and jello water on sunday and take these pills that will flush EVERYTHING out (joy). Then they will do the CT on monday and shoot me in my IV with some dye to see if it is blocked (which that is what they are pretty sure is going on). I would LOVE to not have hurty pee pee's anymore...seriously.




Slash I am so grateful for the progress I have made. I look at my life at this time last year or the year before and it is amazing. I can't believe that at one time I couldn't even shower by myself or even walk up the stairs. I feel like this is going to all be beat soon!

25 things about me

Ok so my 25 things on facebook I think I did while I was loaded (lortab) so it is way lame and I have been tagged to do this a million times so I am going to do it instead of study. Here they go:

1. I almost always sleep in socks, and usually in sweats and a sweat shirt.
2. I bite my lip when I am nervous and lots of times it turns into a huge canker.
3. I feel naked if I don't have at least one ring on.
4. I am really bad at texting people back.
5. I am a huge fan of practical jokes.
6. It makes me really uptight when people try to talk to me when I am listening to something else (i.e. church, school, or a show)
7. I don't really like that chocolate that much and would rather have chocolate chip cookies without the chocolate chips.
8. I love when people play with my hair.
9. I really enjoy running in the rain and think about running everyday.
10. I usually have so much going on in my head that I sometimes miss what is going on around me.
11. I love airports and riding on airplanes.
12. I set my alarm clock a half an hour early just so I can push snooze.
13. School does not come easy to me at all.
14. My toes always have to be painted.
15. It gives me really bad anxiety when I know we are going to have to turn right and we are not in that lane.
16. I am not a picky eater at all and will try most things within reason.
17. I enjoy reading blogs and keep up on reading pretty much everyone's blog I am aware of.
18. I love learning about Hawaii and anything to do with my ancestors.
19. I can sing every word to every Nsync and Celine Dion song there ever has been.
20. I love giving presents.
21. I would rather die than have to watch a re-run of a game I have already seen or star wars.
23. Girls who wear too much eye make-up make me nervous.
24. Sometimes I feel physically sick when I think of how many people are suffering around the world.
25. I love Haagen Daz Mango Sorbet more than life itself.

Classic.

Have you seen these?

They are pee pee teepees! It's so little boys don't squirt ya what you're changing their diapee (totally has happened with me too many times). I think they are genius!

Speaking of pee pee I see the urologist tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Sweet dreams.

This afternoon (haha yes, afternoon. I think I have slept enough for the entire population these last 3 days) I had the best dream! I dreamt that Lia made me go get a pedi and a facial.
It felt so good! I woke up feeling so excellent!

Then after that I went to a party with tons and tons of this:

Hawaiian food! All my favorites lomi lomi salmon, poi, chicken katsu, kalua..etc. The best part: no calories! Yes, in my dream I could eat whatever I wanted and not any calories gained. That's what I'm talkin bout.

Then....I got to go pee pee and it didn't hurt one bit!

Finally, a non-hurty pee pee! It seems like forever since it has been a joy to go potty. The only thing is when I woke up I felt like I had peed my pants! No worries I hadn't.

I love good dreams.

Last night's events.

Today was a little crazy I am not gonna lie. I woke up with a 101 fever and pain that is all too familiar....kidney infection. I went to the doc and he said I definitely had one and saw some blood in my pee pee, but nothing to be alarmed about except for the fact that it is my ninth one this year....that's definitely not normal he said. So they gave me the anti-biotics and sent me home. As the day trudged on it started to feel like I was peeing shards of glass. Not so much something I want to be a part of. By the time night rolled around I was in the most pain of my whole life. It kind of felt like a combo of this: peeing glass with maybe some pottery shards mixed in, putting a rubber band around my ureter, getting stabbed in the back with a knife, and bearing a child all at once. My sweet heart roommates took me to the E.R. where they said I passed the kidney stone and got me on some good drugs. We as roommates/friends have such a close relationship, as now they have seen my bum and sat with me in the ER and picked up my meds at 1 AM. I don't know what I would do without them! I am still in a lot of pain and feel like I definitely don't have time for this, but at least I got some good drugs and am forgetting all my troubles! I'll see the urologist on monday to see what else is going on. Say some prayers for me will ya? More to come.

On a more serious note....

I got a big reality check today right when I needed it. I am not gonna lie these last few years have been extremely hard between the never ending seizures, knee surgeries, wonderful gynecological joys, starting college, failing tests, sending off my best friends, figuring out depression and anxiety, getting ready for nursing school, and on and on. Some days are filled with such pity for myself and being grumpy about the situation when another seizure happens to raise its ugly head. But then I step back and i look at 

these people. 

I guess I am a little late in figuring out exactly who NieNie is, because I had seen the advertisements on other blogs to help give to her recovery fund I just never realized exactly what it was. Last night I read her blog and this amazing couple is recovering from a near fatal plane crash in which the is the husband was burned on 30% of his body and a broken back, and she is suffering from burns on 80% of her body. I read her and her husband's (whom she calls "Mr. Nielson". I think it is so cute!) wonderful love story her, her recovery, about her children, and for her positive attitude. She is stunning to me and she writes so beautifully. If you want to be inspired you should give it a look. 

Someone else I look up to is my favorite cousin Brynnie and her family. Her and her husband's positive attitude has helped me in so many ways. Their sweetheart baby alex has been through so much having heart surgery after heart surgery and had so many highs and lows. Even though they have had ups and downs they never let that ruin their faith and they have continued to push through to keep getting Alex better. He is such a fighter and is doing so great. Their examples have helped so many and been an inspiration to me. 


When I read their stories and look at what everyone is dealing with I realize I don't have it so bad. Nope, not bad at all. I will stick with the trials I have and know that the lord can help ease any trials or pain if we will just turn to him.

BAM. Roasted.

I'm not gonna lie to you. Yesterday's hour long special of The Office was EASILY some of their best work. If you haven't watched it, you should get your buns on here and watch it!

So many good one-liners to even count, and it could go down in my book as one of the best of all time.

Oh...and the super bowl was pretty sweet even if we did lose....we fought a good fight Cardinals.