Sickest. Performance. Ever.

Today I was maybe not feeling so hot. That left me a full day to catch up on the endless amounts of shows that I have DVR-ed and have not had time to watch. Not watching TV equals feeling awesome. Watching tv = getting a blog post of my opinions on what I watched. This day I watched the Billboard Music Awards and I have to say I was super impressed with their special effects...like Cee Lo Green's piano doing a complete 360 was pretty sweet. But the winner without a doubt, hands down goes to Beyonce. If you didn't see it....please watch it here. So awesome.....




She got a special award and it was pretty cool. She ended her speech with a shout out to her hubby and my personal fave by saying, "I love me some Jay-Z". Well said Beyonce, well said. I also love me some Jay-Z.

Some things that were not so awesome were the strobes...we know how much I hate those. Must we ALWAYS use so many??

And then this song that I generally love was PRETTY rough:



Aye. I was cringing. Along with Kesha's perfomance.... I had to close my eyes the whole time because of the strobes so all I could do was listen and my ears did not love. Bummer....just my opinion though.


And it just wouldn't be right if I didn't comment on this:

What do I think about it??

1. There are just SOOOO man awkward men this season! What the heck? Me and the sis were dying.
2. I can't handle the way Ashley talks. If I hear her say "par-fect" one more time my hand may go through the TV.
3. Her hair looks way better.
4. Why do the Salt Lake people have to be soooo sketchy?

Bently. He is Salt Lake boy....and he is going to be trouble. He is also going to be there a while.
5. How funny was it that this man was so wasted he fell asleep and couldn't be woken up?

How skeptical am I that is was fake? Pretty skeptical. Whether it was fake or whether it wasn't, it was pretty funny and he will never live that down. He will always look like an idiot and I feel sorry for him.

Well, I wish I never ever would have watched this show. It is like a growth....

I have to watch. So annoying.


P.S. Oprah was also epic. Ya Mike, it was. 2 shows left.

P.P.S. I hate TV.

Loving rugby...and players aren't so bad either.

This weekend I went to the National Rugby Championship at Rio Tinto Stadium...it was sweeeeet.

I love soccer so much, love going to Rio Tinto and I thought it would be pretty cool to check out this game. So when my friend Dewey invited me I was way excited! There went me, my sis, and her friend over to the game to see BYU vs Cal-Poly and I am SO happy I went.

Have you seen a real rugby game? It is THE most intense game I have ever seen...and it looks so hurty! It makes football look like the wimpiest game ever.

My son will never play, that is for sure. I would be so nervous he would end up in the emergency room the entire game. I mean check out this clip....seriously. You may think you have seen what rugby is like because you have seen "Forever Strong", but it doesn't do it justice...these are some highlights from the game last night:

Video Courtesy of KSL.com

The men in rugby are also quite nice...I wouldn't want to lie about that. Their legs are literally the size of tree trunks, and well, super tough. One guy went to the side of the field, pukes, and then runs and takes out another guy...NBD. It was insane. Not that puking is attractive...just saying, they are pretty dang tough. There were plenty of Poly's there...and we know how much I love the brown man ;). Hahah....

Oh man, all in all we googled the rules of the game and I got way into it! I wish the game was bigger here in the states because it is seriously so awesome. I learned what a try and a scrum was and that the clock counts up and not down. All good things to know BEFORE you go, because it is really confusing if you don't.

Basically what I am saying is...if you get the opportunity to go to a game...DO IT!

Who knows? I sure don't.

 

I have to be one of the most antsy human beings on the planet.

 

I know it probably drives my parents insane and whoever I take to be my lofly wedded will probably want to kill me too. It is a blessing and a curse... I know I get a lot done because of it and it also generally helps me make good choices because I am so worried about changing my eternal outcome. 

Honestly I have calmed down a lot, but this business of putting me down in bed and rendering me completely useless for 6 going on 7 months is enough to drive me over the edge. Now that I am feeling better I am in limbo of knowing what to do....and that my friends in a lot of ways is worse than being down sick in bed and knowing you can't do anything. Now comes the stress of trying to figure out what is next and what I should do.

I don't really know how to explain it. It is this need to get going...get in gear. Go to school, get a job, date, work out, travel, do student government, get to the temple, scrapbook my whole my life, finish my mission, read every book, DO EVERYTHING. 

Where do I go to school? How do I pay for it? Do I get a job? WAIT. Slow down Chels....I don't even feel well enough to do a lot of that! Answer...antsy. Slow down. Get better first. Sheesh.

Everyone and their dog will tell me not to worry about it....but I just can't help it. I just came that way and I don't have any idea what to do. I do however know what degree I want and what I want to do in my life...so that is a step in the right direction, but I can't stand limbo.

You know what else feels confusing? The fact that Oprah only has three shows left.

I just hate it, hate that she is ending. Love the Oprah queen and love the show...I will miss my 4:00 regular that I have watched since I was in like 6th grade. Although I am super excited to see her last three shows....you know they are gonna be bomb. Still bummed I lost the contest to snag 4 tickets! One day I will post the HILARIOUS outtakes of that stupid video. I absolutely HATED doing that entry...if I didn't think I even had a stitch of a chance because only 200 people entered you wouldn't have caught me dead doing that. Well, it was worth a shot.

The sock caper.

We all know how much I love my little Scuddles...(see pic)

 

But there is something he does that makes me absolutely LIVID. 

He is the sock THEIF! Or caper, or whatever the heck you want to call him. At any one given moment you can find him with one of our socks in his mouth. For some reason, he just loves them! GAH! This morning I woke up to him next to my head and I went to give him the best of squeezes until I saw THIS:

 

UH! I immediately stormed out of bed and started chasing him around the house saying, "OH no, Scuddles WE don't eat socks!"

Does he care? No. He takes piles of them. And then where does he sneak them? Oh just to his stash in the back yard. 

We found like 6 of them once in his little pile back there. AH! See where does he get them?? Well, the laundry room, if someone leaves them on the floor, out of your shoe, if you leave a low drawer open...but MOSTLY I pretty much always sleep in socks because I am generally freezing at night! But somehow in the night those little sockies end up off my toes.

GUESS who knows that??...SCUDDLES. So he always steals my socks in the night and so I NEVER have matches. It drives me absolutely insane. 

So after chasing him all morning and getting plenty of these like 'ashamed I am being bad but I don't really care, I want my sock' faces from him....

 

I gave up and kind of went about my morning. I walk in and what do I see???  Uhhhhh.....

 

TWO  socks! That little nilly. He makes me so mad. Scuddles! OH WE DON'T EAT SOCKS!

"Oh yes we do," says he. 

Good thing I love him SO much. 

Good thing he needs a hair cut sooooo bad. He looks like crazy dog and I luff it! 

On a complete side note I got to hang out with these cool kids last night:

Gosh they're the best ever! I had so much fun, and too bad I didn't get a pic earlier because this is like barely a quarter of the people that were the BBQ. It felt AMAZING to get out. I almost had tears...I could have, I was so happy. Happy to be outside, happy to be with the best friends ever, happy to be laughing, and happy to just not think about being sick for once. I seriously forgot what it felt like to hang out...between my mission and being sick it has been a while! Loved it. I had to slunk my way home at the end of the night I was just so pooped out from laughing so hard and having so way too much fun.

It was great. Can't wait to have a Summer filled with that where I am feeling awesome :) 

More later!

The band Fictionist must win.

So, I had this fantastic post already to go yesterday to get your most welcomed votes, and then Blogger decided to go out on me ALL day yesterday.

So now I only have a short time to get your votes out.

Look. Point blank this band Fictionist is fantastic.

They are in this little contest called

Rolling Stone: Choose the Cover Contest

It's like totally not a big deal.

LIES. It is a HUGE deal and I just want them to win so dang bad.

If you haven't heard of them, you are just really missing out. That is why I am going to give you a sampling... like Costco on Saturday. This is one of my favorite songs:



See, no gimmicks here. They are fantastic. I am not being bribed to promote them, I just would really love to see some of Provo, Utah-ite/amazing muscianists to just make it. I just love them.

So can't you just help me by really helping them out by just voting?? I mean it is seriously no big deal and will take you LITERALLY all of 2 seconds (and when I say literally, I mean literally).

We don't have much time because round 3 ends TODAY!! They have come so far and are one of the last 4 bands and 2 will be eliminated today. Luckily they are looking like they are in the top 2 but we need to keep them there and keep them (in the words of Charlie Sheen) WINNING! 

So look, just rate them 5 STARS here and LIKE them as well. 2 CLICKS and you are done. EASY.



I will love you FOREVER and so will they.

Happy Friday the 13th! Hopefully it will be a lucky day for Fictionist! It will be if you vote ;)

Hesistant to post this....but it is too good/embarrassing/funny not to share.

People are going to think I am crazy for being so open, but I guess I am kind of just an open book in a lot of ways. If I have to go through it, I would just rather laugh about it with everyone else...because honestly, this is KIND of funny and yes SO not funny at the same time. (Michael Webb is going to LOVE this.)

So the story goes like this: (and just go with it...you have to read to the end to get it.)

It seems like since surgery I can't fully empty my bladder (haha see now you know what I mean and you are thinking, "I seriously can't believe she is posting this.." but I totally am, because it's ridiculous)

I mean literally...so annoying. We are talking like 6 times an hour and I would not even tinkle a teaspoon it seemed like. My hands are so dry from washing them so many times and I was getting no sleep from going up and down up and down....all the freaking time. I could have killed someone. Not only that, but this isn't just plaguing me at night...this is an all day thing as well. I would turn on the water faucet, think of great water falls...ANYTHING to try and just go like a normal human being. A good 8 ounces would be nice...nothin.

Now I was trying not to bring it up to my mom or say anything because it would be, yet again, another "thing" or ailment to deal with and I have been doing SO much better! I just didn't want to ruin it.  Well, after too many days and nights I just had to say something. Worried that I may have a bladder infection I went in to my favorite doc.

The nurse came in with a bad look on her face and said, "I think we may have to put a straight cath in and drain the rest of your bladder."

My head went directly in my hands and tears filled my eyes. "Ok. I hate caths so much and if there is anything we can do before resort to that I will do it. I just can't take another thing...."

So that is what they did...they sent off for more testing to see if it had an infection and we would meet for another test tomorrow. Bless that nurse's heart. I HATE being being cathed soooooo much.



On to my long and what somewhat embarrassing story...


Well, no infection and for once that was a bad thing. This leaves no reason for my bladder to be doing this at my age...I have never had a baby, never had a hysterectomy, and I have no infection which means more testing.

The next day they had me come to do an ultra sound. First they would measure me with a full bladder, then they would have me go tinkle and after remeasure to see what my bladder measured. Well, unfortunately after I went my bladder was nearly the same size....see! I told ya! I was only going a little bit. So annoying.

What did this mean I wondered?
Oh they knew...they knew EXACTLY what that meant was....STRAIGHT CATHETER.  

Uhhh, I hate them so much. Well, I don't, but I do. They needed to drain the rest of it out. Wanna know what is worse?? Oh ya, I thought being cathed was as bad as it was going to get. But it was about to get, much, much worse. I was going to have to be straight cathed EVERY DAY multiple times a day, EVERYTIME my bladder did not drain all the time. Ya, that's right. 

N FREAKIN B D

So while I am having a, 'I seriously can't believe another function of my body is malfunctioning' moment, the nurse proceeds to tell me (and this is the best part, no really it is) that they believe (yes this is true, and funny) that one of the clots or strokes had damaged the part of my brain that remembers HOW TO PEE. 


HHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAA. Yes ladies and gentlemen, that is right. I forgot how!! Shoot darn it all. 


But there is good news...I always try to find some good news somewhere. At least I am not WETTING my pants and wearing Depends...quite the opposite I CAN'T pee all the way. I just wish it would come out now an then.

So I will be visiting a team of Neurologists and Neuropsychologists who will be analyzing my brain to see what other damage could have been done and re-train my brain how to tinkle. Won't that be fun?


But then I got looking online and thought who needs the Neuropsychologists when I found this  AWESOME line of books that can train me:

 

Or how about this gem?

Since I originally learned from this book maybe it could jog my memory:

 

Heck if I could learn in a day, why not!

 

This one came as a shocker:

Well, I guess I might have to purchase some of these books....maybe it will help train my brain. 

The good new of all is that really I am feeling so much better and have been getting out more and more. Also the migraines = rarity :)


So sure I can't pee, and sure my body keeps malfunctioning! At least I don't have strokes! 

So if you see me walking like a cowboy...no laughing. There is a good explanation. No one likes being cathed 3 to 4 times a day...it makes me grumps! 

Have a good day everyone. 

*Sorry if this post offended anyone. I just thought it was too funny to pass up.

Great stuff. Great site.

I was catching up on blogs like usual the other day and THIS great blog introduced me to possibly the most addicting site ever...

Wanelo.com

Oh what? You've never heard of it? Neither had I. It is basically a place where people can upload products or stores that are unique. This makes for finding A-mazing and sometimes hilarious stuff. These are things I generally do not need but feel like I should own just for the novelty of it. I continually feel the urge to keep pushing the next page button just to see what could possibly show up. 

Here are some of my random finds...

Have some giant ear bud speakers...just cuz. 

 

I do feel like one day I need to have this shower head. It looks divine.

I definitely want this because I love pictures oh so much...I have a pretty sweet picture mobile that I got in NYC and I think it needs this to match. 

 

Have a stache....it's funny. And all the cool kids have them these days. 

Have a noosal shower gel/shampoo dispenser. Nothing says to your house guests 'welcome to our home' like a giant noosal in your shower. It is warm and inviting and says 'squeeze me' immediately.

 

These are so cool! They had these in Thailand and I wanted to play in them. I wondered where I could get them...apparently here. 

One day when I am rich I will own this piece of land on the beach and this tub and that sweet rain shower.... I just think I will want some more blinds so no one sees me nakey.

Put your hard earned cash into these cool tulip USB ports....once again...just cuz.

And here is a great find...this boyfriend pillow. Winning!

And I just want to go here and sit in that awesome swing and not leave....it looks wonderful.

How about this cute umbrella? If I move somewhere rainy I think I will just purchase this just because I love it and could use it all the time.

And last but not least I love these strawberry pitters (is that what you would call them? I don't know, that is what I am calling them). I always hate taking the stems out of strawberries and so I LOVE this.

Love this site. There were way too many things that I thought were funny, interesting, or beautiful for me to post so you will just have to check it out yourself! You will love it too :)

More later.

I not a happy girl.

 

This is how I feel today.

I am just really grumpy. 

(I know good pic right? )

Last night I broke out into a full on allergic reaction. I have fallen ill with many things in my life but I have never had allergies or an allergic reaction. I guess I had a type of reaction but it was because I went out into the sun with a medication so I got a rash, but I have never had hives before.

It first started out just like itching around my ear mildly and then all of the sudden I looked like THIS:

I kid you not. My nose maybe didn't swell, but my ears and eventually my eyes had blisters all over them. Of course my family could not help but make Mike Tyson jokes at my GINORMOUS ears but I was definitely not laughing...ok maybe I was just a little. I looked SO crazy so it was pretty funny I will admit.

The weird thing about hives is that it moves! So today it moved from my ears and eyes to my hands and knees. My hands are now ginormous and look like I have swollen boxing gloves with big welts on them. OUCH! They hurt so bad not only on the outside but they make you feel sick all over.

 

So today the doctor made me come in to make sure I didn't have any complications because of my heart and he wanted to take a look at me...they are very careful with me now days. We just couldn't figure out why I would have such a reaction! I have been on the anti-biotic they gave so many times before (Z pack), I have no food allergies, and I have been taking the same meds for almost a month now and no problems. Well, since the antibiotic is the only change I have had we have to figure the Z pack is culprit and sometimes your body can come up with a reaction later in life. My body chooses now of course, one of the most trying times physically of my whole life. Lovely.

Unfortunately that medication will stay in my system for 5 more days making this reaction constant for five more days. We couldn't have that, so they decided to put me on some meds to try and stop it. Unfortunately the down side is those meds will make my ability to fight off my upper respiratory infection more difficult... I just can't win for losing here. Obviously in my normal life it would be no big deal to get this and I could handle it like a champ...but if I listed off all the ailments I am dealing with right now (trust me, you don't wanna know) my ability to deal is shot and I am just am so done....I just can't take much more.

I just hurt so bad all over right now and I just cried so hard....so today I am miserable world.  I am frustrated and worn out of getting beat up. I just am. Tomorrow I will be tougher and I won't be so grumpy, but today I felt sad. That's ok to admit right? Other people have it so much worse so sometimes I hate to admit frustration and oh woe is me-ness....but today I really felt it.

Thanks for letting me vent blog world.

Tomorrow I will count my blessings a little more and be a happier person...but today I just needed to bleed a little.

Thanks dear Rachel for the visit...I just needed it :)

More later.

Updates and random thoughts in my head.

It has been a while for me to not blog....I do blog quite often these days.

I got this stupid secondary infection this week and so I haven't really felt up to blogging or doing much of anything. I was just sooooo miserable, but I am starting to feel better so I am happy about that!

So this post is going to be pretty random and have a bunch of things that have been floating in my mind that I just want to show you and or tell you about.

1. I am just happy to be alive. When I went to the doctor for my infection they were so excited that I had gotten the device put in and what a new quality of life I would have. When I told him about the pocket of clots they had found he was told me that if they had not found that before I had had a baby that I would probably had died in labor and delivery because a pulmonary embolism...once again reminding me how grateful I am to have had the surgery and that I have been blessed so much.

2. In other news, I got my letter of acceptance here:

I was really excited and I don't know if I will be going there FOR sure, but it was good news all the same.

3.  I am looking in to the possibility of doing a service mission for the remainder of my mission which is a year once I am feeling better. I looked into them this week and they have THE coolest missions like teaching seminary to disabled kids, working at the Welfare Center, giving tours to special visitors at Temple Square and the Conference Center, and many many more. This way I feel like I can finish my 18 month service while being close to home and taking care of my health as well as attending school possibly. We will see how it all really plays out after all is said and done, but that is what I am thinking and feel good about.

4. This weekend I also made it out of the black hole to see these great friends at their reception:

 

Congrats Jill and Mark! Although I wasn't feeling so hot it was so nice to get out after so long and to see so many friends I had not seen in forever. Marked improvement right?

5.  One of my best friends Linnea brought me THE cutest and most creative things ever. These before and after specially made heart cookies from Smart Cookie in American Fork! Ok...so good. Best cookie I ever had and so cute! Thanks Linnea!

  

6. Gotta say, the Royal Wedding was A-mazing. Don't care how much crap I get about it I LOVED it. Kate looked amazing and I was IN love with her dress. Glad everything went well and nothing scary happened....honestly I was concerned. That many people and there has to be a few crazies who want to blow something up. What was cool is since I have endless amounts of DVR and time on my hands I watched all the planning before too so I loved watching it all happen...I know, I know blah blah. Congrats Kate and Will...it was lovely! 

 

7. Well, last but definitely not least, my post would just nat be complete if I didn't comment on Osama Bin Laden. So many emotions surrounding his death right? How would you like to be the most celebrated death in history? With facebook you know he has to be. Well, what a relief but also what is next? I think what scares me more than the bad guys over-seas are the radicals in our own country. And I also hold my breath for all of our service men and women and what they now face. I guess all I feel like I can do is pray for them and give my thanks to them to and their families who are so brave everyday...because I am not so brave.  I am so grateful for you and for this great country!

So that is all...all of my random for today. 

Hope everyone is doing great! Have a happy Monday for me :)